EPISODE 36 pt 2: My “LIve” akashic records reading

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midlife crisis they're showing it. It's like a birth if you're going through this birthing canal into the new iteration of your life, it's a time for deep healing and deep integration and and self reflection. And then coming even more into alignment, who you are if you go in and do the work and love yourself more and love every different change that is going within your body, mind and your soul.

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Hey, peeps, welcome to the flexible neurotic podcast. I'm your host, Dr. Sarah Milken. Yeah, you heard that right. I'm a real PhD doctor. Long, long ago, like last fucking year. I was sitting in the midlife funk wondering, was this it for me? That day, I realized I needed to get off my ass and start my midlife remix. I dusted off my PhD wipe the menopause, sweat off my forehead, grabbed my golden shit shovel and started digging deep to all my midlife pitches. It's not just luck, coffee and hormones that get you through your midlife remix. It's action steps. Let's do this. Hey, peeps, this is the second episode for my amazing chat with Kimber Tiernan, the intuitive healer. And she and I go through my personal Akashic records with my spirit guides, and talk about all things the flexible, neurotic my life and how Akashic records can help inform decisions that you're making for us in midlife. I hope you listen to the past episode last week episode one of Kimber. And if you haven't, go back and listen to that and listen to this writer review, send it to some friends who are looking for some mid life inspiration and normalization. And I hope you enjoyed the episode.

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Before we go into the Akashic records, I just want to get clarity for myself and for listeners, like what kinds of questions can you ask and like, what kinds of questions? Are you not asking? Or is it a better question of it's the way you phrase the question.

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Yeah, well, yes or no questions aren't the best. Okay. And I find like, what's the soul level truth of this? How can I move through this energy? But you know, what is in my best interest right now? Those like the how, when the how, what are good? Questions, questions that are not so good or is like, Should I do this? Because your guys won't tell you what to do? Because they honor your freewill path. And so the shoulds aren't like there is no actual should it's like, is this representative of your highest

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excitement? And then follow that? Got it? Okay. Yeah.

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But you know, I can always help to like, I don't feel like there's roles as well, like, okay, ask what you need to ask. And I can always translate as well.

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For me I have questions about myself. We're obviously not doing a two hour session. I just want to give everyone like a sense and a taste and a feel. But like their Sarah Milken rec or their Sarah Milken records and like flexible neurotic records, or is it like all in one big stew?

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Yeah, well, every thing every entity, every business, every animal, every person has their own records. But then there's a collective records as well. They overlap. So when we open yours if you want to know about the flexible, neurotic, we could just stick with that. But I feel like we open up Sarah Milken, because you're so deeply connected and flexible. Neurotic is part of you. Yeah, we'll still be in the rags.

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Okay, cool. Yeah. Um, because I have questions like, Can I ask what a midlife crisis is? Or is it better for me to say, is there anything that I need to know about my midlife journey? Like, can you ask in the collective or?

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Yes, I actually love the collective questions. Okay, because the thing I love when people come in with collective questions, I'm like, Oh, this is so fun.

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Okay, so we're gonna do a little of both so yes, so let's get started. How do we do it Okay,

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so to open the records I say a prayer I said the Linda Howe prayer I say it once out loud with your first name twice silently with your full legal name and when I've tuned into your records, I'll say the records are now open.

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And do I keep my eyes open or closed? Do whatever you want.

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Okay. Yeah, I'll most of the time my eyes will be closed because it's just easier for me to see and hear when my eyes are closed. Okay, open to make contact every once in a while, but always when I'm doing a reading I'm like this, just so I can be really tuned in as I

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go my water down just bear for this. Yeah, I'm like shit. What am I gonna hear?

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Amazing. Um, what's your full legal name?

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I replaced my middle name with my maiden name. So it's Sara Firestone. Milken.

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Okay, perfect. You're ready. Mm hmm. And so we do acknowledge the forces of light, asking for guidance, direction and courage to know the truth, as it is revealed for our highest good and the highest good of everyone connected to us, for the Holy Spirit of God. Help us to know Sarah in the light of the Akashic records, to see Sara through the eyes of the Lords of the records, and enable me to share the wisdom and compassion of the Masters teachers and loved ones of Sarah have for her. The records are now open, and you may ask your first question whenever you're ready.

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What is a midlife crisis? Hmm.

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So a midlife crisis, they're showing it, it's like a birth, if you're going through this birthing canal into the new iteration of your life, it's the end of one cycle of your life stepping into another but the, the portal this like birthing canal, it's the thing that pulls up all these different things, it's a transformation of your body, mind and soul of getting you prepared to the next part of your life, which is usually more in service and more in alignment to who you are, and not giving any kind of worry about what other people think. So it's pulling up all these different things, it's transmuting your body to hold more light, it's transmitting your body to you know, and the whole energy of, you know, being a month like the birthing energy. So it's a time for deep healing and deep integration and, and self reflection. And then coming even more into alignment with who you are, it looks like a really a step up into who you are, if you utilize it properly. And if you go in and do the work and love yourself more and love every different change that is going within your body, mind and your soul. That makes sense.

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Yeah, is there anything that I need to know from my mid life journey to make it more meaningful and less stressful? Hmm.

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So there, first of all, I see this huge field of light, like your records are giant, and there is just this beautiful gold and feel the light and that's what you're stepping into. And so trusting the process surrendering to it, they're talking about breath and breathing more and doing more conscious breathing, to get into the lungs and relax yourself. It's a surrender and love every part of it. And they're inviting you to love yourself even more and love the journey through it. There's like this resistance sometimes of what is and a resistance of what's going on and trying to control it. And they're like inviting you to release some control and allow like your guides to take you exactly where you're going. Because all that's transpiring within you and around you is very positive and using more of your imagination and using more of like seeing yourself where you want to be and seeing yourself completely healed like the body of of coming into more light within the body and letting it do what it needs to do.

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And do they have specific suggestions on like, what that would be? Hmm

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Do you have a breathwork practice or do breath work?

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No, I tried it for the first time the other night I told Carrie that and I was like this is too hard. I can't do this. I can't double breathe through my mouth it's making me feel like I'm having a hard time so carries trying to carry the life coach is trying to help me find one that doesn't make me feel like oh, we got a heart attack

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it totally I would recommend not a showdown for you. Because it's I'll show you later what not he showed on feels really peaceful and whatnot he showed on does his balance the right left hemispheres of the brain that balances the masculine and feminine energies. It's a very grounding breath. It's a very like, peaceful, connected breath. So it's not the full yogic breath. It's not the Breath of Fire. Yeah.

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Fire because I run very high in terms of anxiety. Totally. It was like making me feel like I was having a panic attack rather than bringing me down.

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Yeah, I don't recommend for people with anxiety disorders or anything to do like the Breath of Fire because it does amplify that energy. So Nadi showed on such a nice peaceful, it's like it's actually what it is. alternate nostril breath. Oh, just get doing that. 11 minutes a day for 40 days will be a game changer. It's very calming. It's very balancing. I love it so much. It's very clarifying union Before bed even to help you sleep better. Yeah, 11 minutes. Okay, minutes. And you can start with two or three if it's hard. Yeah. Oh, yeah, I'll

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be learning away 30 seconds.

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That yeah, they are showing breathwork will really help you.

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That's so funny because I've gotten so many sort of, like, pings on that lately. It's like, really weird. I'm like, my gonna become like a breathwork. Teacher, I don't really even understand what it is. Okay, so can I guess it's sort of a collective and a personal question is, how can we all start sort of viewing the midlife quote, crisis as less of a crisis and more of a remix, where we bring some of that freewill and empowerment back to ourselves and not feel like it's happening to us. And we're just sort of clusterfuck forever and going to feel disgusting and hormonal and gross, huh.

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So I love the rebranding of the remix. I love that, because that's exactly what I see. It's a, it's an evolution of who you are. And just knowing when you're stepping through that midlife point, you do become more confident and who you are, you know who you are, like, you're not 50 yet, but it's like, once you hit 50, you no longer care at all what people think about you. It's like this really beautiful space, because you're not trying to compete with partners, you're not trying to compete with other people, you become that, you know, matriarch the mother energy, and it's a nice space to be able to hold that and just be still Central and beautiful. And in your divine feminine. But it's no longer this like, insecure, competitive, feminine energy, and you balance that feminine energy. That's what I feel like it's an invitation to really balance, you know, your hormones balance who you are as a being, and really understanding that it's up level to another part of your life that is so much more magical and so much more in alignment with who you are. And so that releasing the programs, the templates, the belief systems of the collective that, you know, beauty is held in this sphere and not this sphere. And so it's like the deep work of releasing some of those ideas of well, like, oh, once you know, you become invisible once you're 45, and whatnot, and like, let's just undo those programs and become actually more visible and mourn who we are and trusting our own true to my nature.

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I think that the social media piece is what has added to more of our self limiting beliefs that we can't just do things on our own anymore in the quiet and private space, that it's like everything is a public comparison, a public exhibition, a public show.

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Yeah, I think it's definitely contributed to that. And I think even the younger ones have a harder time with that. Because I deal with a lot of 20 Somethings, it's a lot of my clients as well. And they're so it's so hard for them, because they're always comparing themselves to other people. So I think as the older ones and the leaders, we can lead with true beauty and lead with our true authentic self to give them permission to come into that, that it's not a competition or not, you know, just showing your best version of yourself and being as authentic as we can to allow the other people to come in and taking control of social media that it doesn't have to be just the young pretty, you know. Yoga twists. Yeah.

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No, do you can you answer the question in the Akashic records of like, is my husband experiencing midlife differently from me?

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Yeah, I can tune into his energy come like in fairness to you. Well, your husband feels very grounded. He has a very grounded pragmatic energy. So it feels like he does experience very different than you were your kinetic. He feels very grounded in his energy. He doesn't overthink things the way you do if that makes sense.

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It makes complete sense because I'm like a vibrating central nervous system. And I'm like, is this bothering you? Why the fuck are you not responding to this? Like why are you like okay, that there's like sirens going off like 100% Spot on? Yeah. And so annoying.

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Right and he just that's the way he rolls he is a like, just a hum frequency is your like this like buzzy frequency. So he just moves through life. Yeah, doesn't overthink things and just accept whatever it is. He doesn't feel like he's really hit like a midlife energy because he's just moving through life. Like I think he will. It feels like when he's around 60 He'll start really reevaluating. It feels like it hits him later and go oh, what do I really want to do beyond

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his 20 year old wife by then? No, no. I'm like he's known Since we were 13 Like I don't Oh my God, I don't get traded in you know?

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No, I don't he doesn't have that template. He doesn't feel like that kind of person. I just sign. He's a Sagittarian Oh, wow, he feels like a Torian energy

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because he doesn't have that Saj vibe. So I don't know why he is that

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he probably his overall chart probably has a lot of Earth

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Matic wrecking ball. I can feel that you know what I mean? It's just like, next up next step, next step, and I'm like, wait, all the steps are flying through the fucking air. What's happening here?

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What's your side? Pisces? Oh, my gosh, amazing.

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Like the two of us together on like, who's gonna win?

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I love that. Yeah, his is coming later. I don't feel like he's really hit where you're at right now.

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Okay. Oh, well, I've had a will have had to facelifts by the time he turned 60. So it's fine. Oh, yeah, totally. It's totally fine. Now, in terms of like, you know, obviously, the dynamics of our house have changed a lot with this podcast. There have been some positive and some negative and some resentments and some frustration? Like how do the spirit guides see it sort of playing out over time?

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Hmm. Well, it's most of all positive because what you're actually doing is modeling to your children of following your dreams and following your highest excitement and doing what it is that lights you up. And then they they're watching you do that? I do see. And I actually remember now from your last session, yeah, that your daughter watches everything you do. So okay, um, yeah, it's your whole other session just opened up, but she watches everything you do. And so you're inspiring her to, to follow her highest excitement to follow her bliss to trust herself and be open and, and move into the more the direction of the calling of her soul. It, you're inspiring them to do that energy and also becoming a little more independent and not so codependent on you, where they, you know, can do things independent of the helicopter parenting or codependency of like, relying upon you for everything, it's like creating more, more power within them. And eventually, I also see with your relationship with your husband, it's, it helps facilitate and I can see there's been some little, you know, distortion, hard energy between you guys with it. But in the end, because you're going to be in your own power and your thing, when he does hit his energy at 60, you're already going to be aligned and ready to hold that space for him and doing your own thing where you don't resent him for going through his process. So it's all lining up to be an equal energy exchange. That makes sense.

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No, it makes sense. Because like, even right now, you know, a lot of things come up with the podcast and the guests and the topics and a lot of like, sort of inner work. And I talked to him about that. And he's like, Sarah, like, I'm fine. Like, what are you talking about? Like, inner work? Like, what what do you want me to do? Like he's 100? Like he's satisfied with life right now. Then there's me that's like, what about this? How about that? What about this? I'm gonna dig into my Akashic records. And I'm like, you know, does he think I'm like a woowoo? mental case? Or, like, is he gonna understand what I mean? My personal growth, because I don't even know how to explain it to him. It's not that I'm dissatisfied. It's just that I'm living, like different things each day. Mm hmm. And he's sort of more living in like the routine and it's not bad. It's just different.

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Yeah, it is different. You guys have very different codes. Like I see people with different codes, you guys are your may very differently, but it's very harmonious in the way that you guys work it out to balance each other. Um, yeah, he doesn't get it yet. And a lot of men don't get that yet. They're not there yet. The females. That's what I've been talking about that divine feminine. The females are leading the way and the consciousness and the expansion and the personal growth. And it's taking them time to catch up. It's like a foreign language to them. So for him, I see. It's a completely foreign language. He sometimes rolls his eyes, and I think he gets a chuckle out of it. Oh, you know, it's like,

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oh my god, he listens to all the episodes like when he walks the dog, and he's like, Oh, wow, I'm like a fucking vagina expert now, but he did. This is really funny. I talked about this on my solo episode. I don't know when this episode's gonna come out in relationship with that, but he actually bought one of the lubricants that I was talking about with one of the guests. So he's really cute like sometimes like my podcast annoys him because he does help me with a lot of the technology stuff. But at the same time, like, I think he's like, really proud of me.

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I was just gonna say that. No, he's like, in his core energy, what I feel like in his heart. He's so proud of you. Yeah, he might laugh, or he might roll his eyes. Or he might do this. But inside he's so like, what they're saying, which is funny that you're like, he's so fucking proud of you.

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At the same time, he's like, don't give me one more fucking project. I was like, I have some stuff to do. He's like, is it like, 10 minutes or six hours? I was like, well, you're 10 minutes is my six hours, it would take me six hours just to figure out how to do one of those things.

20:39

Amazing. They're they're talking about energy exchange? What do you give Him in return?

20:45

What do I give him in return? Is that a question?

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That's a question your guys are asking you.

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I'm sweating. Like, what do you mean? Well,

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they're saying make it fun for him, like have an energy exchange of like him helping you and setting you up and doing all the technical and then you doing something really beautiful or sensual or something for him. Like, keep him engaged and excited that it's like you recognize what he's giving you. So there's an equal energy exchange between it. So he says, it's just interesting.

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I know, I'm like, what, what was that? Like? What? Like, can they give suggestions of what that would look like? I mean, I'm not gonna get naked while he's fixing my computer.

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Um, they're actually saying, you know, seeing him more, and, you know, when you guys are together, like taking some moments to really like, see him and connect with him on his level, and make it like really about him, and just be present. And they're showing, like connecting your guys's hearts together and really connecting there. I mean, they're getting kind of like funny, but like your skin together, and like, just really making that deep connection. So that's not all about the work and being more intimate. Yeah, with your field.

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It's funny that you say that, because we've been in this like, house renovating project, which is really trying in so many ways. And like, I'd say over the past month, like we've been together for 1000 years, this is like the worst month it's been for our marriage. It's like, how far can this go? And I'd say like, last a week ago, I had like, complete meltdown. And I was like, I can't do this for one more minute, this house. It's killing me. It's killing our energy together. And we had this whole big kind of week long discussion. And I have to say, about three days ago, it like, got so much better. I was like, Okay, we're good. We're like, we're almost back to normal. Like we planned like a date to have lunch together yesterday, like, we didn't like have all of this sort of negative energy towards each other. And I was like, oh, okay, we're coming back. And maybe that's, yeah, I don't know.

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I think that's what I'm feeling. And like he needs to be seen. I just, I see your hands on his face. And like really looking his eyes and see him for all the magical and powerful energy that he is. That's what I'm

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getting. And I feel like he was like, weirdly, like, obviously thought I was supervising him yesterday when I went to get the mole removed. But like, the dermatologist was, like, that's so sweet that she cares so much that you like this mole. And like, he sort of like got into it a little bit. And he's like, Well, you know, you have to put it on my back three times a day and like, blah, blah, blah, you know, so it was kind of cute to like, have that because we normally function in that energy. But the past like month or two, it has been like with the house kind of like this real hard. So hard. So yes, I will definitely try to address him. Now, is my soul being expressed the way it wants to be right now?

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Absolutely. And they're also asking, you know, are you following your highest excitement because that is the one rule in here is following your highest excitement to the very best of your ability and with zero insistence on outcome. And so following that bliss is the Joseph Campbell following the bliss following those impulses. So you moving into this new realm of being seen and being heard and sharing is the expression your soul wants to take at this time, it wants to be seen, it wants to be like fill up with that these golden light codes and these very strong divine feminine energies that around it. And even Aphrodite is in the center of your records. So there's a lot of beautiful, powerful energies, and it's inviting you to become more into that knowing of who you are and expressing so yeah, absolutely. They feel like you are expressing yourself and the the highest excitement and there's going to be more to come and more to come and more to come, which is really exciting.

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Now, what are the guides see as what's next for this podcast?

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Interesting. So first of all, I see you know, it's been like, a lot of energy as you've started it. It's like, it's like, how do I do this? What am I going to do this, it feels like it's moving into a new phase of more smooth energy. It feels more supported. Like, it's not so hard. And it's just more of a rhythm and a flow. Um, yeah, it feels like back here. You know, it's like a little kinetic because it's like, what am I doing? How is this work and it's coming into more of a water energy, where it's this sphere around it, that's now an ease and an elevation and expanding your audience and expanding the viewpoint i i see you expanding into other realms that you haven't even thought of yet and doing other people's platforms as well. Like more getting out there with bigger energies. And eventually, I see a book coming through as well. And so you're still you're still on this big expansion, but it's it's gonna keep expanding but actually feels easier on you where you're not doing everything,

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huh? I can't wait for that. Yeah, right. What did I learn about career success and financial abundance from past lives?

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Because I'm obviously living a very different life then I was raised in with my mom being a career person, right?

26:52

Right. Um, I'm just scanning your different past lives. It's funny I see you as a doctor and a past life. So you have been a doctor before it feels more like a surgeon which is so you learned about balance in that lifetime? I feel like you were so it's like you know what you say your parents were so dedicated their career fields in that lifetime you're so dedicated to your career that you didn't take time for family and partner and so in this lifetime I feel like that's why you moved away from the career was like wait a minute, I've got kids I don't want to do that I don't want to sacrifice my family and sacrifice my relationship for being so dedicated to this like path of career which so that lifetime led you to this expansion and knowing of like, oh, I actually want to be here. That was like a an opposite shift.

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Mm hmm. Interesting.

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Very interesting.

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Wow. Yeah. Okay. Now in terms of health, what are the guys have to say about my nervous system? My cortisol levels, any potential auto immune stuff, inflammation and what can I do to help myself Hmm.

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So your thyroids coming up, your adrenals are coming up. Oh, yeah, your your levels spill all little bit just out of whack. What you can do to help yourself so your nervous system resides in your gut and your immune system is so much in your gut and so is your serotonin so really minding your gut health and an I actually feel like doing a nice cleanse your liver also feels a little hot to me. Um, so cleansing like doing a nice gentle liver cleanse doing a nice like doing adrenal support. I don't know if you do like Ashwagandha or anything. Breath again is the breath work. It's like moving through the breath and calming your nervous system and telling your body you're safe. Telling your body that you know you are home you are safe. It is safe to be here, it's safe to be in the body. I do see a past lifetime where it wasn't safe to be in the body and that's some of the kinetic energy that runs through your body. It's so interesting. It's like literally you know, they say you know when you're in the fight or flight energy, you're running from the saber toothed Tiger and so all your energy to heal is going through your lens and your legs and your arms and it's not a time to heal. It's not a time to judge justice. Not a time to connect to the divine. You're literally running I actually see a past lifetime of you. It feels like in the savanna it feels like an Africa and you're literally running from a tiger like you're very young 13 Beautiful like black woman running and it this tiger chasing you and and catching you So it's like the fight or flight feels like it's moved in to this energy field of you learning how that you are safe on Earth, that you are safe in every single moment coming to the present moment, the breath taking deep breaths, even healing your vagus nerve, the nerve, the cranial nerve that runs from the back your head all the way through your body. So looking at vagus nerve healings because it gets I see with your tension, sometimes that vagus nerve gets blocked and stapled. And so learning how to open that to really heal all these different energies do that picking up. So there's all sorts of different people that are doing vagus nerve healing. But what's really good things are just literally stretches like you grab one ear, you pull it open, because the vagus nerve runs through here, and then you look up for 30 seconds. And that opens this side. And then you go like this. And then you look up for 30 seconds, and that opens this side. So it's like an opening of that space to allow the energy to move through. Envision, really see yourself as completely healed. Balance all your energy centers. Just know that anything that goes on the body starts in the in the energy field first. So finding what are these distortions? What is it that got into my body? And what is the teaching me because the body is always teaching us it's always bringing our awareness to something that I see in every shadow as a gift. And so in everything that's going on, what is the gift in this? What am I invited to move forward in? Does that make sense? Yeah,

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yeah, I guess for me, what's interesting is, if you look at all the things that probably get me rattled, none of them are inherently bad. I mean, finishing a house is not bad. It's just stressful, because it's a lot of components. And I don't want to disappoint my kids. And we've been promising for four months that we're gonna move in and all of this stuff. And so that's not bad, but I don't know why like seeps into my whole energy system. And why can't just be compartmentalize and not be part of my whole body.

32:11

Right. So this also, not only that lifetime, but it also seems like childhood of being hyper vigilant, because it feels like you are alone a lot. And having to, like, take care, you have to take care of yourself a lot.

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I mean, my parents were working and you know, we had a, like, I live in housekeeper. Person who didn't speak English for a long time until it switched over. Um, but I would say I mean, alone, it would be like after school. Mm hmm. Until my parents got home, but not in like a neglectful way but just in like, they're working, and we're teenagers, and my brother and I are home doing homework. Hmm. But they were very present like at dinner, they were very present on the weekends, they weren't absent.

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That's amazing. Well, I think from a certain lifetimes in that lifetime, but it's like you were born wired this way of being little running more anxiety, and then there's this hyper vigilance of the shoes gonna drop, something bad's gonna happen. So it's all a subconscious energy, that something bad is gonna happen if I don't try to control it. And so for you to fully trust, the divine order of things, and that it's not, the more we can try to control, the harder it is on our bodies. And so that letting go of control and allowing things to flow and finding that gratitude of like, Oh, my God, this is actually a really good thing. Seeing it. It's so easy. Like, we talked about the expansion, it's so easy to forget that gratitude, and be like and look at the problem. But look at the overall like, Oh, this is a beautiful house, I can see it's a very beautiful, large house and look at it from that viewpoint of like how lucky we are and seeing it from that lens and know that the way I see anxiety and excitement are the same frequency, it's what lens are you looking at? Are you looking at the lens of it's good for something bad can happen? But like even like, you know, before this, it's like, Oh, I was like, am I anxious? Or I'm excited, you know? And it's like

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yeah, totally. Okay, so before we wrap up, is there anything else that the guides want me to know or want to show me?

34:29

Huh? The most energy is saying you are so deeply loved and you're so deeply held, and that everything that's coming through your energy in the next little while is very positive, very expansive, and that they are holding you through that energy. You're creating a legacy. And so what I see is this family unit of very intertwined souls that are very connected that have chosen this time, space reality to grow and expand together is going to expand more like, I don't know why, but they're showing grandchildren. And they're showing like this legacy of energy that started with the parents on both sides and have gone through and creating this beautiful tree of really powerful and connected and beautiful beings that are in service to humanity, but also in service to each other and creating this beautiful family unit of field energy and connected energy and helping others through their light and their excitement and the humor as well. Which is

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God. Yeah, my whole family is like, let's take the piss at each other. In a fun way, you know, it's always it's always in a fun way. But I do it's funny because I do feel like my kids in their both in their own different ways are like old souls.

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Yeah, they feel like it and just feels very connected. Like I see these threads between you and your husband and your kids. And they just guys are very connected.

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So yeah, it's like the four of us are like, it's the four of us first and everything else gobsmacked. You know? I mean, sometimes I feel like we're so tight that it's like, Okay, we have to like, open it up a little bit. You know, I fully relate to that. Yeah, sure. But I think that we definitely wanted our kids to feel like, okay, it's us, like the four of us first. And then like, once everyone's accounted for, then we can like move out into the real world.

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I love that that's shows and then that extends to grandchildren and extends like this, this web of, of beauty and grace, and learning and growth. It's really, it's such a tight family union. It's very beautiful.

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So my daughter's gonna come out of out of being 15 not hating me.

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You guys are gonna be best friends. I'm telling you by the time she's 22 They're gonna be best friends and do everything.

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Funny thing cuz she's like, obsessed with me. But at the same time, it's like my just breathing is too loud for like, might do love me or hate me like what's happening here?

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That's so normal. And I think that's just so biological and pushing you away. Like my daughter. I'd be like, pet her. She's like, Oh, don't touch

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me. I know. And then five minutes later, she's like laying on my lap. I'm like, wait, psycho. What? Was that? So different? No, before we before we wrap is there. What did the guides say about like, what my son needs right now versus what my daughter needs right now. Oh. And my husband needs attention, apparently,

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yeah, he needs attention. You're, Your son needs space he needs like just to know that you're holding him. They're seeing like big hands underneath him. I've just know he's held. But give him all the space, he needs to figure out who he is and what he wants to do. And even his own energy, because he does feel like there's hormones running through his body. And that's sometimes when he goes silent. And he's just trying to figure things out internally and needs that silence. So it's not personal when he doesn't talk to you. It's literally he needs the time to understand who He is inside and even what's going on inside. And so that's when he just needs everything to be quiet because of all the internal stuff that's going on with him, which is all good. But it's all part of the process. So yeah, just the hands there, but not too interjecting and giving him that space so that he does come back and open and keeping your heart open. Not taking it personally. Yeah. Your daughter. Yep. So your daughter has these like beautiful wings, and she needs her wings and being able to be as free and like, there seems to be a slight little rope. It's like you give her freedom. But there's still rope on her, if that makes sense. Keeping her close, but she wants a little more freedom. She's kind of a what is she kind of a wild one? Like she's not in a bad way?

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No. Um, I mean, she's, I don't know if I mean, she's definitely has a very big personality. Mm hmm. Like, she's not what she she will not hide her feeling a lot. But yeah, she just I mean, my husband says I gave birth to myself.

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It feels very much like your energy. It really does. When I tuned in, I'm like, Oh, it feels very very similar. Um, so the more just even support and allow her to cultivate these wings to she's gonna fly very high and very far. And so the more you can just allow her to fly and do those things that excite her and move into the energy she wants to go past her. She actually knows like, she seems like she really knows what she wants. She does and so trust her now. I trust what it is that she wants and where she wants to go and the things like that she wants to study or do or whatnot, because she has this deep knowing of where she's going and what she wants. So allow her wings and allow her to fly as far and high as she is willing to go. It's kind of like they just see her shooting straight up into the sky.

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It's interesting, because she always I mean, not always, but many times, she'll be like, Well, Jake does this, but I don't do that. And Jake does this, but I don't do that. And so there's always this like, thing of like he's doing more than she's doing. Okay, she's turning 15 in November.

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Is he older? Yeah, he's haven't Yeah. Yeah, she's just not there yet. She will. And it's nice because I think he inspires her to like she watches him. She watches both you and Jake. figuring things out of exactly who she is. And what she wants to do are very close. Yeah, I love that. That's so beautiful.

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I mean, it's the closest siblings can be I mean, do you know I mean, but like, I'll be like, is he annoying? You? She's like, Mom, we're friends. And I was like, Okay,

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I love I love that so much of yeah, you're doing what you can with her like it. You guys are so similar. And even the humor, it lands well with her everything. You guys are like,

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I know, I posted this photo. My husband and I are having lunch yesterday. And I was like mid life pot date or something. And she writes back What the fuck? And I was like, what other parent would accept what the fuck via DM from their 15 year old daughter. But I'm like, obviously, I created that channel. Being okay.

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Totally modern, I have the same religion. And I love it so much. And we talk about everything. Oh

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my god. Like if I'm talking to a good friend on the phone, and she's like talking about her daughter and puberty, all the stuff and my daughter's going doing your homework and she's like, do I really need this right now? Like what's happening in this room that I need to be part of your friend's like vagina conversation about her daughter? And I'm like, I don't know because you're here. And my husband's like, What the fuck is happening here? Before we close? Do we have to close the records and kind of work? We do?

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I'll close your record. Okay. All right. We'd like to thank the Masters teachers and loved ones for their love and compassion. We'd like to thank the lords of the Akashic records for their point of view. And we'd like to thank the Holy Spirit of light for all knowledge and healing. The records are now closed, amen. The records close Amen. Breakfast or not close.

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Back to real life camber. I want to thank you for helping us understand how the Akashic records can help us access our own spiritual information and our personal libraries to inform our midlife identities and self reinvention. I want everyone to think about shit. One little thing they can start doing today, one small step. I want to thank Kimber, for highlighting the Akashic tools and inspiration that helped us to continue to self reinvent and chisel our midlife identities and hence this podcast Kimber Kiernan. Thank you. Hey, peeps, it's me again. I listened to this episode, we'll the second episode with Kimber Chernin, so I could summarize the golden nuggets for you to have actionable items to start using today. I know that when I listened to a podcast episode, I'm like, oh my god, I love that and then I can't even fucking remember the specifics. This is why I come back and do a golden nugget summary. In this episode, we sit down with Kimber again for part two of the Akashic records. This week, Kimber gave me a live reading. We dive deep into Akashic records and explore questions that can help you understand your midlife journey. Golden Nugget number one, midlife is rebirth. Midlife is not the end of one section of your life. But the beginning of another is not just your body transforming but your mind and soul as well. If we put in the work by deep healing and reflection, then we will step into this new chapter with a better understanding of ourselves. Golden Nugget number two, loosen the reins trust the process. Kimber explains that instead of resisting the changes of midlife, we need to learn how to roll with the punches a little. Our spiritual guides are inviting us to release some control and are taking us where we need to be golden nugget number three, the Akashic records in family. Listening to the Akashic records can help us tune into the souls of our loved ones. This can help us learn more about the needs and desires of our family members. And in doing so strengthening our relationships and connecting our souls. Golden Nugget number four past lives who Are you in a past life? Learning about our past lives can explain how you've become the person you are in this lifetime and the choices that you're making. Look at past life decisions such as career journeys, relationship dynamics, and this can align with the decisions you've made in your current life. The gold is dripping off these nuggets, grab it, use it, there are three things you can do. First, subscribe to this podcast. Second, share it with some friends who might like some midlife shit. And third, write an apple review and send me a screenshot. Oh, and of course, follow my instagram at the flexible neurotic Talk soon